Blessed Love

God loves you.

Believing more of Him, is taking the first step of a Christian Walk.

Even if you are not Christian, you'll be reminded of God's presence daily. Unconsciously so, we take His presence for granted. It's cool for being a free spirit, and not being tied down to any religion. Being a free soul reminds me of freedom of the mind. I felt special and proud that I'm not bound to any religion; I have the freedom to explore every kind of religions and felt no qualms of talking insentitively about it.

However, during worse times (traumatic experiences or just depressive moments), I usually turn to my friends for comfort. But when I need immediate comfort before I let harm come to me (cutting myself, when I was in M'sia), I felt spiritually empty. I do not know who to turn to, but thank god I did not proceed with the irrational act. The most recent example, was my sexual harrassment. After that unfortunate incident, I was also left spiritually empty.

It was wrecking me up inside.

Until I went to an Asian Christian Camp. I felt their genuinity, their sincerity, their generosity; giving without strings attached. Giving not just by materials, but with good advices, encouragement and friendship without judgment.

I was touched and felt truly blessed. I felt like I belong to Christianity.

And when I was annointed as a Christian during the camp, I felt a heavy load of paranoia, pressure and sadness were lifted off me. I felt loved and not being looked at critically.

Other Love:
Sibling love, parent-child relationship, love at first glance, feeling of love and platonic love (among friends).

Sibling Love

• Oddly enough, I wouldn't know how to comment, because I do not have any brothers or sisters. However, I know that, no matter how unkind your sibling or siblings are, they still care about your well-being in their strange way.

Parent-child relationship

• Parents wish their kids remain kids, instead of growing up into rebellious teenagers. We are deserving of our parents and we honour and respect them, taking care of them after they are in their wisest years. They love us unconditionally, and in turn, we could try to please them as often as possible (don't be too obedient, you have freedom to express).

Love at first glance

• This is one in a thousand. It is just a strong feeling, usually governed first by the attraction of physical features before we go into how charming they are, how adorable is their ear lobes, and how they make us smile all day long. Although, we might discover how demanding they are, how unreasonable and dreadful are their habits. Still, if both of you would want to make the relationship work, try putting in effort to include your significant other in your interests.

Feeling of love

• I meant the feeling of couple love. It usually evolves from being friends, blossoms into wonderful spurts and then taking it to a serious level. Marriage could be considered and some would prefer to live together first before taking the life-changing decision into action. As for me, I found someone I love, but I would want to rear a dog before having children. :P

Platonic relationship

• Could you still stay good friends without developing me feelings for your friend? I have witnessed a wonderful friendship here in NZ: Jesse and Halee. Jesse and Halee are so close that they give each other pecks, hugs in the public eye and yet they still manage to not date each other; Halee has a boyfriend now, although Jesse is still single. Their platonic love is so remarkable.

In my honest opinion, I don't think I can not develope feelings for a guy friend if he keeps hugging and kissing me on the cheek. The feelings do grow, but it all counts on you whether you could see if there is a future and if the other person shows signs that they're keen.

People use more body language when they're in love. That's why it's so damn confusing if they say 'nothing' but their body language clearly states that something is wrong. Unless we're reading it incorrectly. -.-''

Blessed be your love. @-*-----